Fifth drabble for my Rurouni Kenshin drabble challenge.

 

I wrote this from a challenge. I had had this idea for a long time and I got the extra motivation from this challenge I responded to.

Usagi/Mamoru

 

( Love's Anxiety )

 

Drabble number 4 for 30 Kisses using Rurouni Kenshin.

 

New drabble!

 

I wrote this very short story from a picture challenge. I wrote it from the picture below. Enjoy!

My second drabble.

 

This will be my fourth anime couple doing for the thirty kisses challenge. This is a really fun challenge. I highly recommend it.

This is my FIRST time doing anything with Rurouni Kenshin. So here is my first drabble of Rurouni Kenshin. Complete honesty, what do you think? Oh and I have read EVERY manga of Rurouni Kenshin, I didn't like the anime, so any references I use, will come from the manga, not the anime. Thanks!

 

( # 1: Look Over Here )

This is to those that haven't gotten to my new account yet, the post I made on my other one I made private, so here it is here, I feel a lot better now.

I have a lot to get off my chest...here I go.

I was laid off my job, that I have been at for over a year and I liked a lot. Because of the Economy, the newspaper that I was working at, decided to shut down the graphics department, shut down the carriers and pretty much anything like that. Advertisers stayed and so did news because we still need local news. Other than that, all of the graphics and ads themselves are being done at the main newspaper which is in Jackson Mississippi, from where I am, it is almost an hour away. I was laid off the second to last day of January of 2009. While I was glad to finally have a date to where I know I won't have a job anymore, it still killed me that I was laid off.

I have a wonderful husband. I think I annoy him most of the time because I have no job. I am looking around, but it is in the middle of May, and I have not found a job yet. I know, a lot of people are going through the same thing, but it still doesn't make me feel better about myself.

I think for a little while, I thought I was fine. Dustin still has his job so we aren't hurting on money. We just moved, and while I like the place better, it still didn't help much. It took a friend of mine staying with us to ask if I was all right because I looked really depressed. I had been tired like near exhausted the past few days, and I think I am a little depressed. I am. And because I am supposed to START this week doesn't help my emotions at all. Lately I had been wanting to do nothing but cry.

I love to write. That has always been a great passion of mine, probably more than graphic design. I write Sailor Moon fanfics, and I have tried other fandoms as well. Lately, I just wanted to finish the ones that I started so that I can just be done with them. Maybe it's because I just wanted to update so that I can have them finished, but more or less, I think also because I was tired of it. Right now, it wasn't enjoyable and I think maybe that's what I thought of me being slightly depressed. I don't hate doing everything else, but I think it is slowly going at me.

I am also probably the worst person to ever open up about what is bothering me. It is easier to have someone opening up to me, and I have no judgement, it's just nice to have someone to talk to, but not great when I talk about what is wrong with me. It's almost like admitting that I am nothing but weak.

When I was younger, I grew up hiding my emotions, holding back what I was feeling, and holding back any type of anger I had. Divorce, stepparents, siblings, fathers and new mothers...plus other stuff that I really don't want to mention at the moment, it all crashed on me and I really didn't know what to do with it but lash. Probably a reason as to why I am usually not a great person to be around.

I think I am a lot better at it, but as the old saying goes, 'Old habits die hard,'.

I was an admin at a sailor moon forum. I had been for a long while, and I never hated having the position. But ever since the layoff, I hadn't been on the forums and to me, I hadn't done very much, at least that's what I thought. I think I was so clouded in my own problems and the main thing was to find a job, that I just made the decision that I should just step down, at least for a while so that I can figure things out.

An idiot thing for me was that I didn't talk to anybody about it first. I didn't talk to Bunny about it. I guess I didn't know that it was really rude that I didn't talk to her, I just said I need to step away for a while, again, I am the worst at talking about my problems. I thought it was ok because I didn't get any feedback or anything else back, so it was left at that.

Not too long ago, I said I didn't want to be staff member on the sailor moon fanfic site that she also owns. And I added that I was really thinking about quitting writing fanfics. And I guess when she texted me about it days later, I guess that's when I finally realized that I am a little depressed, and it sucks.

I am a little depressed and I still have some things to figure out. Eventually, I'll be all right. I don't hate writing, I still love it. Before you know it, an idea will pop into my head and I'll go crazy if I don't turn it into a story. LOL.

So that's what's going on with me right now. And I will end this on one note, I apologize, for anything that I might have done or said, that wasn't myself.

From now on, I will use my other LJ account to update things that are going on with me. This account will be used for such things like anime challenges or what not.

I needed a new name for myself.

So, add my LJ writers_fable  to your friends list if you want to see anymore of my entries. Thanks!

OMG!! Taken was a fucking awesome movie! It's about this guy that used to work for the government and he *somewhat regretably* lets his seventeen year old daughter go with her friend who is nineteen to Paris. While the girl was talking to her dad on her cell phone, she witnesses her friend being abducted in the apartment they are staying in and they come looking for her. Her dad tells her what to do and when the kidnappers find his daughter he tells them that he will find them and kill them, and all throughout the movie the dad is single handedly going through everything and doing EVERYTHING he can to get his daughter back. It was awesome!!

And if ever anybody has a teenage daughter/son or whatnot that wants to go out of the country with their friends, show them this movie and tell them that is why the reason is NO!

Great movie!!

I know I haven't updated in forever, but here is one now.

I just watched the season finale of Grey's Anatomy, and I have to say, damn! Meredith and Derek did 'technically' get married, but not really, either way, it's ok because it kind of suited them.

So the whole time we are wondering if Izzie is going to die, my bets were yes because that was just me. She had surgery on her brain and for a while she had like a 1 minute memory thing going on where you tell her one thing and then a minute later she's asking the same question. Derek said she was going to be like that for a little while, but for a bit it looked like she wasn't going to get over it, until Alex basically yells at her, the one thing she remembers so we are all like happy go lucky.

On the side note, a John Doe comes into the ER. A man had pulled a woman from being hit by a bus so he is like really messed up. The girl stays by his side claiming that he is her prince charming. So, it being a John Doe, nobody is going to really think about it until the name is revealed which always comes at the end of the episode.

I liked the whole Christina and Owen a hell of a lot better than I liked Christina and Burke. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against Dr. Burke at all, he just didn't seem right for Christina, half the time I think he just put up with her for the sake of putting up with her. To me, they clashed too much. That's just me. Her and Owen, I like it a lot.

I don't know what is going on with Mark and Lexie. Mark is being all meh with male PMS because he got so awkward about asking Lexie to move in with him, Dude even I know that it was too early to ask! Too early! Quit being a girl!

Now for the wow part...and I was balling like a girl...

Towards the end of the episode Meredith is helping John Doe, at the beginning he tries to basically sign on her hand with his finger, kind of like how Patty Duke did when she was a girl in the movie The Miracle Worker, because she couldn't sign. But John Doe tries it again on Meredith's hand so she lets him this time instead of getting a pen. And he spells out...

007...007...

Who was known as 007? GEORGE!!!

George is John Doe!

During the entire episode, he had some kind of brain thing going on, he was in really bad shape and they had to take them to surgery. As soon as it clicks to Meredith she tells everybody that it was George the whole time so now it's like...damnit!

Izzie goes flat line while Alex is hugging her and though she had a DNR Alex demands that they ignore it and the chief does. So during that time, they are trying to revive Izzie and the others are trying to work on George.

There is a scene where Izzie is going into the elevator in her prom dress. When she opens the door, there is George in an army uniform. *He had inlisted as a doctor in the army the first half of the episode*. And the episode ends with that.

I swear, I had a hunch that Izzie was going to die but I never thought all that time that George would be the one to die to. Of course, it leaves it at that, but the episode leaves you with who is going to die and who is going to live. I have never really cried in a show before, but when I saw that the John Doe was George, I started balling like I had lost a friend...can you believe that?

Now I'm anxious as to when the show will continue, so that I can find out for myself.

Ok, aside from the Grey's anatomy spoiler,

I think I am really changing. Every day I have to take an inhaler to be able to breathe a little, I think I have mild Asthma. About a month ago, I told the girls on the SM forum that I didn't want to be an admin anymore because of everything that was going on. And last night, I sent a message to Bunny telling her that I didn't want to be a staff member anymore. It's a big thing, and I guess it comes with married life and a life that is developing for me. I'm not sorry for it, and I like my life. I really do.

I have a writing project I am doing, well two really, one of them is going to be a collection of stories, I intend to have that be the first book published by me. My goal is thirty stories. Wish me luck.

My other one...I'll tell more about it when it's fully developed.

Talk to you all later!

Yes I finally have pictures of my new place! Have at it!

New House Pictures

The last month we have been moving back and forth to the apartment and then going back to our new home. We went on a shopping spree for everything. Curtains, pictures, rugs, the works for the place. The place we have is so huge that we have a lot to fill. The apartment was so small and cramped so now it is alot easier to handle because it's so huge. My kitchen rocks, but I think there is a furry rodent in there somewhere. We lost three loaves of bread because there were holes chewed into it and the bread looked like it had been knawed on by little teeth.

I will be sure to take pictures of the new place I am really glad of the way it turned out after decorating it and everything.

Just been crazy...to tired to update anymore.

Will be back later. LOL.

Duck Hunt.

I know I haven't updated in like forever, so here is one now.

If I haven't said it before, Dustin and I have decided not to move to Oregon. The way the economy is going, his parents told us that the same thing is going on there, so there would be no guarantee that we would get jobs once we got there. We would basically be going to a brand new state, living with his parents and hoping to find a job. Plus, we would use up all of our money in the savings to make that one move, so by the time we get there we would have little to no money left. So it was decided that we wouldn't move, because Dustin still has his job and the healthcare career isn't going down any time soon so he is in good hands.

BUT...

We found a brand new place to live. IT is a triplex! We are out in the country, it is one one floor and two bedrooms and two FULL bathrooms. And get this!! IT allows pets!!!

YEs! We moved out of our crappy two story apartment and away from the loud college kids and moved into a triplex in the country. It is so nice and huge!! Big kitchen and big living room it is beautiful and I don't have to worry about noises coming from different parts of the place. At the apartment, I always heard stuff next door or whatnot and I couldn't sleep because I would be so paranoid that someone would be in the apartment when Dustin left for work. Here, I am not scared and I actually safe here. Dustin says that was the main point was so that I felt safe in our own home.

WE have a small backyard and our own parking right in front of our door. No more trying to fight for a parking spot and no more struggling with groceries from far away parking lots. It is awesome. We had a few bumps in the road moving here. Before we even moved in, there is a washer and dryer connections, and the maintanence men DID NOT turn off the washer hose when the last people moved out so when I got the water turned on, water spewed everywhere and flooded the living room. It was so much that it made puddles OUTSIDE!

But! The whole place is complete tile floor! That's right no carpet at all! So it dried up the next day. The move took maybe three hours to do and we did it bright and early. WE got all of our furniture in and now it's a matter of going to the other apartment and getting things here and there. We have it until the twenty-fourth. We broke the lease to get this place and it was well worth it. Don't worry I will be sure to take plenty of pictures. So far I have gotten approval from both my parents so it's like YAY!! Yeah I'm happy here.

The whole octomom thing pisses me off the most. How the hell do you go to a fertility clinic to get pregnant on purpose when you have SIX children already!? And how can you honestly expect sympathy from people when you fire your FREE nurses from Angels in Waiting arranged by Dr. Phil and then have all this shit about you didn't expect so much publicity? That is complete bull I think you are bathing in the attention so you have someone taking care of your problems. Best interest of the children, give them to couples that WANT babies but can't have them.

I don't know about one that made me happy, but one that made me laugh was this dude crashed into a church roof. That's right a church ROOF. How the hell do you land in the church roof in a car? And I saw the video, I don't see any hills or bumps even big enough to land in a church. Nobody was hurt, but still...makes you wonder.

Possibly...

I have the tendency to jump my leg up and down when I am sitting. Not like literally, like my foot is on the ground but my heel will do the bouncing. Drives my husband and everybody crazy.

Have I tried to change it?

Nope.

Been a month since I lost my job, and honestly there isn't much out there except for working at fast food places. I think I would probably throw up from the sight of how they actually do make that stuff. I can't say anything really because Dustin and I still eat at those from time to time, but we have cut down dramatically which is really good. In a few months Dustin and I will be moving to Oregon and hopefully having a better life there. I mean, a lot of the businesses here are closing down and more are still to come. I had applied for multiple positions at the animal hospital but I never got a call back and honestly what kind of person posts a job for a receptionist but not tell you what company it is or where it is? I won't print out a resume and send it to a P.O. box number.

Dustin bought me a cook book that has a lot of pages of recipes that include like five ingredients. So this will give me a good start on trying to work on my cooking. I hope to have good cooking skills when I go to Oregon and hopefully have a bigger kitchen. I hate our kitchen. It is too damn small and nearly impossible to keep the damn thing clean. I can barely keep the apartment clean and while Dustin finally gets the idea that I am trying to keep this place clean, somehow we both go back to our old sloppy habits.

I'm trying to work on my fanfic swap and I almost regret doing this. I'm not liking the way my story for this person is coming out and I'm really starting to wonder if what I'm writing isn't what she wants. I have one more month to finish it, and it's a little difficult because I get this block and I can't seem to finish it or write anything on the chapter. IT is set to be twelve chapters long and I have six written. Though that does seem like a lot, for me wanting to reach the twelve mark, it seems so far away. Meh, I usually do get this stuff done in time, so hopefully it'll be all right. I mean, it's not like I have anything else to really do. Except try and look for a job, and that is hard enough as it is with our economy going down the toilet.

I have been thinking more on my re-make of my Sleeping Beauty story. I am excited that I will do that, but I am trying to work certain things out to where I still reference the original story and still make it my own. I have so many other ideas, probably for like short stories but I can't seem to stick with one idea. My head goes in different places. LOL.

At least I gave a small update on my writing journal. It's not much but it is something.

That's about it going on right now.

There's only so much you can put into texting...if it's important then I prefer to use the phone.